My PET scan is all clear. Here's the before and after treatment scans to show you the difference.
You'd think I would be jumping up and down about being cancer free but I'm indifferent at best. I was told that's more normal that I'd think because we tend to prepare ourselves for the worse, so when the best case scenario comes around the news isn't AS great to hear you would think. Don't get me wrong I'm happy to be cancer free, but something about the whole situation just seems...off. Maybe that will all change on Friday when I meet with my oncologist and she gives me the plan for the next year or so.
So that's the good news, I can now say I've been cancer free for over 3 months. I use the day after my last radiation treatment has my first cancer free day. It's absolutely a relief knowing I won't have to be injected with 4 poison liquids, one of which I can literally feel going into me. And I won't have to get the terrible radiation that dried my mouth so badly it lead to an infection.
There are a few people who were happy enough for both of us to hear this news. Where my day all changes is when I had to go shooting my mouth off and ruin the moment. I'm not going to sit here and cry about it so you feel bad for me but like the title says, this is what I do. One day I'll learn to just shut up and accept the fact that once in a while I deserve something good in my life. It's just tough to do that when there is such a history of negatives and thinking I don't deserve anything different. One day.
My rants about the life of a 29 year old dude with cancer. Donations for the high cost of my cancer treatments can be made through this link: I'm seeling some #teamcoozy merchandise at http://www.fiverr.com/coozy17/kick-cancers-ass.
Wednesday, October 15, 2014
Tuesday, October 14, 2014
Waiting is the hardest part
I had a PET scan Monday afternoon and I'll find out the results Wednesday morning, about 12 hours after I've written this. This is the most anxious I've been during the last 10 months because the results will tell me if I still have cancer or not. Words can't describe what it's like to wonder if you'll have to go through the same agony of treatments again. Having to wait for this news so far has been in the back of my mind for the better part of a month. Hopefully tomorrow there is much, much less to worry about
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