Sorry 4 tha wait

I think I started using this as a way to vent my frustrations with all the crap I was dealing with. The biggest issue I had a hard time with, was not knowing what was going on with my lung. That led to chemo being pushed back and never really knowing when I might be done. I think the fact that i don't write here as much means I might be having an easier time with this deal.

A lot has happened in the past 2 weeks or so. I had a birthday, started working at the baseballs games again, went to a wedding and got scheduled for radiation. One thing didn't write about when it happened was my trip to Montage Music Hall to see Hit The Lights. I was front an center for their set singing my lungs out. After the show I talked to Nick, the lead singer. He either recognized me from past shows or the giant in the front of the crowd singing along really stands out that much. Without looking for sympathy or pity I told him I rescheduled chemo to be there tonight. He asked me to keep him updated as I finish all my treatments and we occasionally email back and forth. I'm still a little kid in that I hold musicians I respect up on a pedestal, so the fact that he asked me to keep in touch blows my mind.

My birthday was a (Borat voice) GREAT SUCCESS! Although I wasn't feeling top notch I still went out to bet on the ponies. My boy Kevin surprised me with a trip up here to see me. It was great to hang out with him an Paige together. I also had my triumphant return to the TV crew for the Red Wings and it feels good to control a camera again. My friend and co-worker Nate got married this weekend and he hired me to shoot the wedding. It was my first wedding with Top Shelf Productions and I'm so grateful for the opportunity to show off my skills. Oh yeah, and I have 12 appointments for radiation! I'm finally starting to see the finish line...maybe so life isn't all that bad. I made it through 35 hours at my full time job with a 9.5 hour day, this week I'm shooting for my first 40 hour week in 2 month. Like I said, you need goals even if they are small.

I'm going to try and share my of my happy news and good things in life as they happen cause nobody wants to read 3 paragraphs of self loathing. Thanks for playing along so far.

One more positive

So before I get all emo and complain about how crappy I feel after chemo I thought I'd let you know how awesome of a time I had recently. For about a week and a half I didn't feel sick and it was awesome. Last week  worked 30+ hours, the most I've done in over a month and a half. It was almost like I was getting back to a normal life.

A couple weeks ago I was was sitting on the couch Saturday afternoon thinking about how bored I was and said screw it, I'm going to Syracuse next weekend. I planned it out just right that I got to see a lot of my favorite people, watch hockey, eat Brooklyn Pickle and go to the races for the first time this season.

As I sit here writing this with an IV in my arm getting what should be my final chemo, I'm trying to stay positive and remind myself that it will get easier from here. There will be a small setback as my body processes the chemo out over the next few days but the goal is to be healthy enough for a trip to Fingerlakes Racetrack on Saturday for my birthday. It's always fun to throw some money around and yell at the horses to run faster, hopefully I can make it.